lower six glimpse

soaking in memories

i jz want to hold u thightly..

to prove how much u mean to me..

to show u my love wit al de passion i hav..

tired..

trying to clear my mind but u keep coming back..

listening...

to de waves tht resembles ur breath o so much..

knowing..

if i cnt even control my own pulse..

wt place would i even have..

if i finally decided to withdraw from our lifes

leaving u in shock n helpless with ur broken heart tht i wil neva touch again

i would hate myself for my selfishness n how cold blooded i cn b..

watching u walk into de sunset alone..neva turning back..

we lost faith in each other

i wont b able to hold ur hand n walk into de evening horizon..

n to grow old wit u n to luv each other wil silver hair..

its nt fair to leave u in de dark reminiscing in vain..

i wil go..

leaving de starry nights tht we once share in our deepest sweetest memories..

i wil fal back frm ur heart n gif way to de new true conqueror..

forget me u mz..

one day the wounds wil scab n evetually heal..

jz hope it de day wil come soon...

Its sad, so sad
Its a sad, sad situation
And its getting more and more absurd
Its sad, so sad
Why can't we talk it over
Oh it seems to me
That sorry seems to be the hardest word

Sorry Seems To Be The Hardest Word by Elton John, Lyrics by Bernie Taupin

wt cn i say mor bsides dis 5 letters tht is so often thrown around bt rarely spoken throught de heart..

i neva meant to hurt any1 in anyway..im jz me..no 1 cn change tht..even i myslef hate dis part of me..aikz..

sure..i did hurt u...a sin tht wil burden me for de rez of my life..

talking to u..looking into ur eyes..makes me go bck..way bck...hw it started n hw it end for us...

u r mor den a fren to me nw..n tht wil neva change..its sad tht u cnt c tht..mayb de hurt i hav caused is jz too much for u to find strength to move on..

i moved on..i hope u wil too...mayb guys reali do pul out frm relationships better..yt..i assure u..it still hurts frm time to time..

evil masked clowns

stumbled over pink's 'funhouse' d other day..

de chorus goes..

'dis used to be a funhouse..bt nw its fulled of evil clowns..

its time to start de countdwn..im gonna burn it dwn,dwn dwn!'

humans r undoubtly de mos evil n ugliest orgamisns who hav ever roamed dis filthy planet..

nt physically bt spiritually..

dey r selfish beings who oni purpose to continue breathing is to waste de limited oxygen we hav left..

sry..hehe....

hw cn bez frens bcum complete strangers over sum itty bitty matter..lolz..

hw cn a couple bcum a burden for each other even after dey broke up..

hw cn a father n his son hav a gap so big even 2 decades of days n nites cnt cloze it up..

human relationships r a simple n vy delicate link..

its easliy tied up n complications cn ezily occur jz by a few words or sum actions..

ppl abuse dis delicate situation for their own gd without considering de feelings of other ppl..although i myself dun care much tooo..hehe

its hard enough to b living ur own life

so dun care so much as long as u think ur rite..follow ur heart wit rasionality..

plz...

stop wearing dose masks..

it wil oni numb de pain for a while..it wil come bck later to haunt u eventually..

embrace each other wit open hearts n stop de war..

its jz too sad to c ppl around me goin dwn everyday n im helpless too...aikz...

sick---10th july

lol...stupid nose..

5 packs of tissue cnt stop de "flood" frm my nostrils

damn flu...could it be h1n1...wao..haha

actually i quite lk being sick

u gt dizzy n wt ppl say stim stim

u think a lot n slp..

u get emo n u get high..

kinda lk being drunk..hehe

lies

stop de lies n stop de scam

retain de truth n expose de reality

stop de ripping of ppl lk ham

bring bck de lost clarity n serenity

wth

寂寞先生..gary曹格

你的笑容是恩惠　世界難得那麼美
於是追 要你陪　
可惜本能終會將美麗汗水化成淚水

黑夜之所以會黑　叫醒人心里的鬼
在游說 在縈回　
在體內是什麼 在把我摧毀在傷痕累累

我可以無所謂　寂寞卻一直掉眼淚
人類除了擅長頹廢　
做什麼都不對　Oh … I'm Not Okay

我假裝無所謂　才看不到心被擰碎
人在愛情里越殘廢　就會越多安慰　
無論(有)多虛偽

空虛并非是詞匯　能夠形容的魔鬼
它支配著行為　
能擺脫寂寞我什麼都肯給　就像個傀儡

goosebumps..

powerful n high pitch as always..

gary really done it dis time..

blue jazzy feel wit simple acoustic piano background

bravo man